My Dilemma of taking picture

I have a habitt taking photo myself, cause i am not that handsome or muscular in the picture. That's why i ended up to take the photo of myself. My friends are looking around me, thinking that i am crazy. But, i just don't care as long as i have a few nice photo with me. As i know whenever i take picture with my friends i am always ended up being the most unnatural person in the picture.

Hehe, so to those who said i am crazy, i have stated my reason here. You know, these 2 photos had wasted me half an hour (with almost thirty tries). I appreciate them, and that's why i upload them in my Facebook and Blog as a token for my own effort... ... May be... ... Haha

Power of remininscene

I feel i am lucky today, this is my second time of getting small reward from Pepsi vending machine. Tomorrow i will to go buy my Pepsi in convenience shop nearby to get the second Pepsi hehe.

I tell myself not to drink Pepsi anymore, but Pepsi works like a drug to me, i just can't stop buying it. What the... ... The second reason is that i don't have the habit of bottling up water in my home as i always dump my bottle after drinking and ending up buying Pepsi everyday. Dang.

Last night, i went to Minneapolis with my friends, they are my seniors and i am just a junior of them, and most of them are graduated and going to graduate soon by next semester. They are Mei Thin, Soo Chin, Richard, Guat Yong, Feng Yun. Last night might be our last gathering with my seniors. Ohhh, i will miss that mement very much. Mei Thin is going to Taiwan to be a teacher, Feng Yun is going back to Malaysia; Richard and Guat Yong are currently busy for their graduation preparation for next semester. Soo Chin is going to stay for another 2 semesters with me, hopefully.

About the last night, my Karaok was terrible. But i enjoyed it. I don't know how other thought about me, may be next time they don't want to invite me to Karaok, so i better try my best to pratice my singing skill!

Ohh, i will miss all of them very much. Today i watched The Rebellion of Lelouch, heared S.H.E song, 你最近好吗？All of them relate to Power of Reminiscnene, the motivation to move forward to the day of tomorrow. That's all that i want to write down, as a track of missing you guys. Goodbye to Mei Thin, and Feng Yun, tomorrow is still charming though.

Before i stop typing, let you to have this nice song:

你最近还好吗？

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底 你能不能收到它
天有点冷 风有点大 城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念裏挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发


有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了 明天还长 回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念裏挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念裏挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

P@th Under My F33t

I had came along of my life, and a sudden thought came to my mind. Is this my ideal path of life. What if i didn't choose to come to here? What if i stay back in Malaysia? What if... ... and etc. I miss my language, i miss the surrounding that i used to be. Many pictures come to me, and too much of reverie yield abstract happiness; yet wake up with nothingness but wall.

I don't want my friends come into my dreams, i don't want to enjoy myself with them in my dream, as i would know eventually this is merely a dream. It's hurt. That's the way i had chosen to walk on without my friends. Now, i am in US, trying my best to find my best friend, i mean best friend, but the truth is that high school friends are the most precious glass balls to me.

Through the glass ball, i look myself in the past with my friend. Each glass ball has its' own unique story to tell. It is meaningful to gather them up, and keep them in my desk drawer. With all of them are together, i hope we all can meet in future, and has your story to tell your friends.

No more any IF, i have to walk on, that's the journey.

0318 Friday June 06, Thought of my mind before going back to USA

This is my first time in Malaysia after 10 months long in US. I didn't actually have the feeling of missing my own hometown untill the time i back to Malaysia.First day, on the way back from Taiwan airport interchange, i told to myself "4 hours more and i will be back to my own land,
the land where my mum gave birth to me!" And this is the first picture i had taken in KLIA airport, and now i know why KLIA airport is famous of its modern architecture.

First i miss alot of Malaysian food like Roti Sardin, Roti Pisang, Roti Telur, Spicy and Sour fish head, Nasi Lemak, Chai Koay, Char Koay Teo, Cendol, Ais Kacang, Laksa, Ai Yu Bing, Lo Bak, Yuan Yang, Amokana, Cheezy Pork Chop Rice and etc. Thanks to my friends in Penang, Soon Cheong, he brought me to taste all the food in one day though. I am really appreciate that he could give us a guide in Penang. And of course i miss my mum cook too!! I love her Sambal Fish, Huang Jian Yu, and Chou Dou. Mum, thanks all the things that you had done to me.

Second, i miss my dad and mum so much. Although i spent my time on teaching my mum learning online but in the end, it seemed like i had failed. I felt a little bit regret because of my own attitude. I was being rude to her as i was getting frustrating on teaching her and began to speak louder to her. I am too bad, i guess i have to said sorry before i go back to USA, and of course i will hug her too. My dad, still he has a lot of his old friends, at least i am not worry their life in home because they know how to spend their time without children in home, that means younger sister, younger brother and me! Dad, you better take care of your own health o~~ Make sure you have yourself a semiannual medical report.

Third, i miss a lot of my friends in Malaysia. Let me list them out first, San Ee, She Jui, Meng Wei, Chang Jian, Chee Wei, Zhi Yi, Lay Hoon, Chao Tee, Jin Yong, Yan Qi, Khee Jim, Jun Sin, Jin Fern, Shu Cheow and my school teacher. So far, there are some friends i haven't meet yet, they are Jin Hui, Yih Chi, Chang You, Boon Kim, Wilson (Kah Wu), and my "brother" Wah Seng. Wuh, although i still have little regret as i couldnt meet some of them, but i am really satisfied that they were willing to meet me. Thank you~~~ Your smiles touched me so deeply, Q_Q


Fourth, I guess after this Malaysia trip, i guess i will not be back for 2 years. If possible i can make it back on this winter too, but the probability will be small except my mum want me to back! Now i have the hard feeling of leaving my hometown, i don't know why. Feeling that i am going to weep silently in the corner. The picture on the right is my hometown, Parit Buntar.

I am writting blog, i am writting my feeling down, i am writting my memory, i am writting my little path of my life... ... i am... ...

Thanks Mum, Dad, my friends, teacher and Parit Buntar. Thank you. Without you all, then i will not be here. See you all in future.
//(ㄒoㄒ)//

无与伦比的美丽

It's been a long time, i didn't hear Chinese songs... ... When i was in KL, I watched 苏打绿无与伦比的美丽MV, and i was suprised that it's indeed a typical Indie song that i long for. Well, actually we can differentiate which song has been commercialised to suite trend of public, but not for this song.

Wuh, i am addicted to this song recently although i am slow rock fan. But this song is just impressive and impactful. How should i begin with this, the music creates a picture of vast plain but with reality restrains us to fly... ... I don't know why do i want to use FLY, may be it symbolises freedom, a freedom to break the capsule of reality. May be that is the best descripition i can use to convey my feeling.

I want to send this song to all of my friends, although reality is always dark cavern of our life path, but i believe that we can fly once we are out of the cavern... ...

天上风筝在天上飞
地上人儿在地上追
你若担心你不能飞
你有我的蝴蝶
　　
天上风筝在天上飞
地上人儿在地上追
我若担心我不能飞
我有你的草原
　　
嘿 嘿 你形容我是这个世界上无与伦比的美丽
嘿 嘿 我知道你才是这世界上无与伦比的美丽
嘿 嘿 你知道当你需要个夏天我会拼了命努力
嘿 嘿 我知道你会做我的掩护 当我是个逃兵

About me

Personally interested in Mocha. I grew up in Old Town Style of Chinese Cafe.

Every morning, helping parents doing some routine task such as:
1. Boiling up water
2. Cleaning up the marble table and wooden chair

Usually we started business by 6 o'clock in the morning. After helping out, i would have a cup of Milo, Half-Boiled Egg on top of my coal baked bread. Sometime we didn't use butter, but using my mother handmade Kaya with baked bread.

When we were having break, i would help out my mum to take care of the cash. The toughest job was to take care the coal baked bread. I would use the double sided flat tool to nip the two bread on my left hand, and with a small wooden fan on my right hand to fan the fire while boiling up the water at the same time. Huhu.

Without using cash register, within a minute, mum had came out with the total. Impressive. When ordering, shouting was inevitable, father would recklessly went back to position after having conversation with old friends who was having breakfast before going to work. But still, the cafe was still enveloped with dense atmosphere of geniality.

That's all i have been going through. That's the part of me.